End of College Musings (Things I’ve Learned in Four and a Half Years)|| Grateful Days 312-324

IMG_5358the last day of classes this semester means my last day as an undergraduate student.

Today marked the last day of classes for University of Arizona students for the fall semester, and for me and many others it marked the end of our careers as undergraduate students. I know I’ve written many a post about how crazy it is to be graduating, but with graduation only 10 days away the realness of it is finally hitting me. The reality of it all should have sunk in when I got a job (woo hoo oh yeah thank you Jesus!!), but it didn’t. The reality of my graduating hit when I realized that I didn’t have to register for classes for next semester. When I realized when other students are enjoying their 3-4 week long Christmas break I’ll be starting work. When I realized that next semester I will no longer be a student of Chi Alpha instead I’ll be on staff. I’ve learned a lot over the past four and a half years and trying to write it all out just becomes a huge rambling so here are a few things I’ve learned in my years at University.

1) Your parents transition with you:
I realized that as I was transitioning from being a teenager to becoming an adult, my parents were becoming parents of a college student and now they are going to become parents of a college graduate.

2) Friends are blessings when you move out at the ripe age of 18:
I was fortunate enough to gain a group of friends who helped my become an adult and who helped me become the woman I am today. Having a group of friends who can help you transition and who are able and willing to listen to you complain about life or help you figure out what to do with your life makes being in college a lot easier.

3) Talking to people about your worries/problems is important:
I came to college not really wanting to let people know when things were truly bothering me because I got through high school without having to tell people what was really going on in my life. Going through most of my Freshman year of college like that was pretty exhausting and I realized I needed to tell people when I was stressed out because if I didn’t I usually ended up crying somewhere. Telling people also gave my family and friends the opportunity to pray for me and give me encouragement through it all.

4) Talking to people about the good things in life is also important:
It’s a lot easier to tell people what’s bothering you but it’s equally important to let people know when good things happen in your life because it’s way more fun to celebrate good things with other people than celebrating alone! I used to think telling people about something good happening in my life meant I was rubbing something in their face, but telling people about exciting things means there are more people who can celebrate the good things in your life.

5) You learn a lot about yourself during college:
In the past four and a half years I have learned more about myself than I could have ever known four years ago. In nine semesters I have learned what annoys me, what makes me angry, and what makes me happy. I have learned what I want in friendships and my future husband. I have learned what kind of daughter, sister, aunty and friend I want to be. I have learned who I am as a woman of God and who I am as a leader. I am still learning more about myself, but college has helped me learn things about myself I couldn’t have known had I not gone through four and a half years of studying, crying, talking, laughing and praying.

6) God doesn’t stop working in your life just because you’re going to graduate from college:
This semester was a lot of preparation and a lot of praying about what to do for the next year of my life. In Chi Alpha each student is encouraged to give a year and pray about a lifetime and basically that means we are all encouraged to give a year to missions and pray about whether or not that would be for a season or for our lifetime. I knew I wanted to give a year for the past couple of years and with graduation slowly approaching I began praying about where to go and what I was going to do before I left. I decided I would get a job and support raise for wherever I was going to go. After praying for a job my supervisor from my internship emailed a few of us telling us of a job opening where I was an intern and I applied. Then I got to take a test. Then I went to an interview. Then another. Then I got the job! The crazy thing about all this is that I prayed God would give me a sign of whether I should stay and give my year with Chi Alpha here or if I should go because I didn’t want to get the job then leave because the job is in my field and it’s one that I wanted. Then I prayed if I got the job it would be God’s way of telling me to stay, but if I didn’t I would find somewhere to give my year then support raise and by getting the job God answered a prayer and answered a question. That’s when I realized God doesn’t just let people go once they have graduated from college, if anything He prepares them more for what He has in store for them. God helped prepare me for what He would have in store for me as I work and give my year with Chi Alpha because what He has in store is better than what I had originally planned.

7) Asking for help is a sign of strength, not weakness:
I always had this strange idea that asking people for help meant I was being weak, but it isn’t. I’ve realized asking people for help is a sign of strength because it’s a persons acknowledgement of the fact that they can’t do it alone; they need help. There have been many a time when I needed people’s help, whether it was homework or life, asking people for help is beneficial.

8) Seasons of life come and go:
In four and a half years I went from a teenager to an adult. Now as I transition from college student to a full functioning adult, and as I go from student to staff I am realizing more now than I did before that seasons come and go. In the time it took for the weather to go from hot to warm, from warm to cool and for the leaves to begin changing colour I became an adult. In the time it will take for the leaves to fall and for the air to grow colder I will be a college graduate. By the time Christmas lights are going to be taken down and calendars change from 2014 to 2015 I will be a working adult. Seasons come and go and there will be days when it feels like you should have taken a picture of a specific moment so you could have a memento of that day, but the truth is the best memories cannot be captured in a photo. Nor can you put a filter on it and share it with the world. The best memories are those that you can take with you in your memory for eternity. Enjoying each season is difficult at the time, but with each season comes new lessons and new opportunities of growth so enjoy each season as it comes because who knows how long you’ll be in that moment. Even though there were times when I wished it would be over quicker, I am glad for my years at University. I have learned so much and I have become a different person than who I was all those years ago when I first set foot on campus.

College has been the most difficult four and a half years of my life, but at the same time these have been some of the most wonderful years of my life. All the things I have learned while I’ve been a student will be with me for years to come. The friends I have made will be in my heart for many more years. The past nine semesters have had many challenges, but they have all prepared me for what God is calling me to do and they are all shaping me into the woman I will be tomorrow. As I say goodbye to the past four and a half years I say hello to a new season of life and await the new lessons I will soon be learning.

goodbye college. hello world.

Here’s to the Future|| Grateful Days 225-256

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It’s finally hitting me that I am going to be graduating from college and moving on to a new season of life. I mean, obviously I’ve known I’m going to graduate this semester and I’ve thought about it, but it’s finally starting to sink in. It’s kind of a frightening thought, but at the same time it’s also a very exciting thought.

It’s strange, now that school is in full swing and I have more and more assignments I need to get done the thought of graduating is starting to excite me a little more. I’m excited because I’m graduating one, but I’m also excited because I’ll be entering a new season of my life.

I feel strongly that the current season I find myself in has taught me a lot, and is still teaching me a lot. I’m glad for where I am in life and I’m happy about all the things I have gained through all of these experiences, but I’m excited to see where I’ll be going. But I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a bit nervous as well.

Graduating from university, or at least thinking of it, is way different than thinking of graduating from high school. When I graduated high school I knew what I was going to do. I had a plan for after graduation, but the plans I have for post-graduation aren’t plans I have set in stone just yet. At this point they are only dreams and I’m learning to trust more and have more faith.

As I see the end of this season coming to an end (this sounds a smidge melodramatic but oh well) I find myself learning more and more what it means to trust God with my future and have faith that everything will work out the way it should! I know who holds my future and I’m not scared of what’s going to happen. Yes I do get anxious about my future, but I’m not scared the way I used to be. I’m learning to trust God more and more, and I’m also learning so much about my heart in this season.

I’m extremely grateful for the things I’ve learned in my life thus far. I’m glad for where God has brought me from and where He is going to take me. Though I feel anxious about it many times, I’m glad to know that my future is in the hands of a Father who loves me deeply and tenderly.

So, here’s to the future and all the times ahead!

Grateful Days 120-123

Grateful Days 120-123So, I’ve been M.I.A for a few days with good reason. I’ve been hanging out with mah familia! It’s been pretty crazy with graduations/promotions and people moving away, but I love being able to spend time with my day one people. But in the midst of all the exciting events I’ve been thinking of my high school graduation and how much things have changed.

I recently told someone that I made a lot of new friends when I moved from home and a lot of the people I was close to in high school I no longer speak to not because I dislike those people now but because we grew apart. We grew up in different places and at different paces. My friends and I found ourselves in different seasons of life at the ripe age of 18. We grew together for so long, then one day we were in different places in life. Literally and figuratively. It wasn’t bad, it was life and it was okay. It is okay. Of course I’m still internet friends with these people, and I see how their lives are turning out and I’m so happy for them!! My best friend when I was in high school is now married to a man she loves and has a beautiful daughter who is going to be just as much fun and just as smart as her mother! Another of my good friends from high school is going to be married to a man who loves her more than words can even express and whom she loves with just as much zeal! Other friends I had in high school just graduated from University and are going to change the world! I often wish I stayed in better contact with them all, but some people are truly only in our lives for a season and when the season passes new people come in to our lives and they’ll stay for their season. Some times that season is a few months or years. Other times it’s for the rest of time.

I find beauty in the fact that certain friends only stay for a season. I don’t know why, but I do. I find beauty in the fact that friendships can teach us how impermanent things are in life. They help teach us to appreciate what we have before it’s gone. I know that’s pretty dramatic, but it’s true. I know I some times get in the habit of forgetting to enjoy people’s company because I think they’re going to be around forever, but that’s just not true. People grow up and move on. It’s life and life is beautiful. Don’t get me wrong, it is extremely sad when two people who once texted one another day in and day out are suddenly two strangers making awkward conversation in the middle of the cereal aisle. But the beauty is that life moves on from the awkward cereal aisle conversation and the next time these two people meet they will have things to say to one another and be able to relate on a level they did not know before. These people will become husbands and wives; mothers and fathers. They will become adults with bills to pay and stories to tell. They will know what life is beyond late night text messages and between class locker conversations. They will grow up and they’ll know the beauty of life in a way they didn’t know before.

As we grow up, we move past the late night texts and hall way conversations. We transition into the phone calls with dear ones and coffee dates to catch up. We learn the art of making time for lunch dates with friends and Skype sessions with the ones too many miles away to grab lunch. We begin to understand the words out parents said to us during those late night talks about the future.  We begin to enjoy our sleep and often crave it, but we won’t pass up the option of a late night movie/television viewing with our friends. We begin to understand the importance of letting people know how we feel and we learn to appreciate the time we have with those around us. We start to see the beauty of the lives we lead. We start to understand that life is in deed beautiful!

Grateful Day 119

Processed with VSCOcam with b1 presetToday I watched my roommate, Nalani, graduate and my best friend, Ruth, graduate! It was so great to see them both graduate and to think of all the ways 4 years can change things. I’m so proud of how far these gals have come and I’m so excited for all the things they are going to do in their lives! I think this little quote from Oh, The Places You’ll Go by Dr. Suess perfectly describes the journey these two lovely ladies are now on. They are going to go places and grow so much and I truly cannot wait to see what their lives are like.

This quote just applies to every one!! We all have places to go and mountains to climb. We all have growing to do, no matter how old or young we are. We all have an adventure waiting for us, even if it isn’t doesn’t look exactly the way we think it should, our lives are an adventure and we have places to go and things to see! Also, if you have never read Oh, The Places You’ll Go  you really should. Even if you are an adult, it is inspiring and such a great book!!

So if you’re graduating from high school or college CONGRATULATIONS and I wish you the very best!!

All you non-graduates who read this, I hope your life is so wonderful and that you find the adventure in every day!!

Grateful Days 100 & 101

Processed with VSCOcam with t1 presetOh my stars this past weekend was such a breath of fresh air!! I love being able to hang out with my family, but now the school week is in full swing!

I have so much coming up, and at this point in the semester I need people to push me to get things done. I am usually a self-motivated person but for some reason towards the end of the semester I am in desperate need for people to push me to get important things, like talking to advisers and such, done. School work I can motivate myself to do, but I have this tendency to put aside important talks for “later”.

Honestly I put things aside for “later” because I’m scared. Getting an important talk done  and over with means something new and different is in store. In my case right now I put aside doing so many things for school because I’m scared of what my life is going to be like once I graduate. I know I shouldn’t be scared and God has a super cool plan in store, but it’s still scary to not know what lies ahead! Once I graduate, I have to figure out a few things, i.e where am I going to give a year? do I really want to do that? is that really what God is asking of me? (I know the answer to a couple of these questions). Once I figure all of that out, I have to learn something new and different; I have to adapt.

It may sound silly that I say I have to adapt, but I do. Whenever my best friend and I talk about school and life after college she always mentions that we’ve been in school for 16 years of our lives. For 16 years all I did was go to school. I didn’t enter the work force after I graduated high school, I went straight to get a degree. I have friends who got jobs and stayed home, but I moved from home to do more school! All I know is school! Since I don’t know much else outside of school, I’m a bit scared of what’s to come after graduating and such. Again, I know I shouldn’t worry about it, but I do. I may love Jesus, but I am still a human being who worries and stresses about life!! In this season I am stressing out about my impending graduation in one semester and what life is going to be like afterwards. Every time I think about my life after college and how little I actually know, I realize I need to trust God more than ever and I need to learn to breathe and have fun every once in a while because too much work and no play made Jack a dull boy. So even in the midst of growing up and taking new steps, I want to trust God. I want to breathe.

Grateful Day 97

Processed with VSCOcam with m3 presetMY BEST FRIEND IS GRADUATING!!!!!! Even though I’m kind of bummed I’m not graduating with her, I am so excited for my dear bestie! She has been by my side since Freshman year of college when we were not only the only Freshman in Chi Alpha, but we were the only Freshman girls (funny how that works). It’s crazy to think that four years ago, I met a girl in Chi Alpha who was more shy than I was and barely spoke and now here we are four years later and she’s my best friend! I have written many posts about her already, but I am truly so blessed by her! She listens to my ramblings, and on the off chance I need to talk boy she talks boy with me, and when I just need a friend to listen to me word vomit for a bit she will listen and not say a word. She listens to me talk about my hopes and dreams and she encourages them all. I truly could not have asked for a truer friend. She is my bosom friend, my chum of chums and I am so extremely proud of her! She has so much in store for her future and God is going to do so many great things in her, through her and for her! I am beyond excited to see her new journeys and see where life takes her! I could truly gush about how grateful I am for her and how proud I am of her, but she’s graduating soon and I can do more I’m-so-proud-of-her’s when the time comes. But really, how many people can say they have a friend who will always fight for them. A friend who will listen to every complaint and every sigh. A friend who will celebrate with you, mourn with you and encourage you. I hope every one can and if you can’t, then that friend is coming. I honestly never thought I’d have a friend who would believe the same things as me, yet challenge me in my way of thinking and challenge me in my relationship with God but that is exactly who my friend is. God knows what people we need, when we need them and for how long we need them. Some people come in to our lives for a season and that’s fine. Then there are those who come and are meant to be the friend who is there through all seasons, and those friendships are worth the fight because nothing could replace the joy and the happiness that comes from a friendship like that! So again, my best friend is graduating in 3 weeks from tomorrow and I could not be more proud!