Today I turn 21, I guess I turned 21 today, either way I am now 21. Woo hoo!! It’s actually kind of strange to be 21. I don’t feel any different, but I know things are different. I think about the past year of my life-of 20-and I know things are different. I learned so much about God and His faithfulness during this past year of my life. I learned more of how awesome God has been to me especially when I felt so helpless. I especially learned how blessed I am. And I learned a lot about myself.
Today I didn’t do anything super extravagant to ring in 21. I woke up, looked at a condo, went to breakfast, went home, went to Michael’s, washed my car, went back home, did chores, got dressed and went to dinner with my family, and now I am home just hanging out and writing in this here blog. I thought it would be super cool to throw some huge fiesta to ring in this new year of my life, but as I said before I learned a lot about myself this past year, and one of the things I learned is how much I enjoy the company of my close friends and sweet family. I’ve always known this about myself, but this past year I started to accept it because for so long I thought I had to be someone different and be a little more outgoing and put myself out there more, but I learned to accept the fact that I’m not that kind of person. I’m super loud and outgoing and sometimes a bit obnoxious once you get to know me, but before that I am shy and I am awkward! And I always thought I had to be someone different to be people’s friend or to attract certain people’s company and such, but this past year my friends and family showed me how untrue it is that I have to be someone different. God really used them, and spoke through them on several occasions this past year, to help me learn that. He used people I know and love dearly to help me realize that I am the way I am and it’s good. For this reason I am so blessed. I am also blessed, because even though these people helped me realize I am good the way I am, God also used them to challenge me to step out of myself and step out of my comfort zone.
I have never been so challenged by God than I was this past year in regards to stepping out of my comfort zone! Boy oh boy was I challenged. He challenged me to step out of myself and open up to people in ways I never would have thought I was capable of. He also showed me how loved I am. Sometimes it’s hard to feel loved and accept love because a lot of times we feel so unworthy of it, but I was reminded how loved I am by my friends, family and God. God’s love comes without condition, and His love is given most when I least deserve it! How amazing is that! My family and friends also taught me that love and friendships are worth fighting for! I’ve never met a group of women who were willing to stand beside me and lift me up when I needed them most! I also cannot think of a better family to have encouraged me and guided me through this crazy past year of my life! God blessed me so tremendously by my sweet friends and wonderful family that I know and understand that He properly equipped me for the struggles of life and He knows what I need far better than I, and for this I am blessed.
So, as my birthday comes to a close I feel blessed and so loved by the people I hold dear to my heart and by God who has gotten me through the tough stuff and blessed me with the right stuff! To the people who made 20 so wonderful, and a God who loves me beyond comprehension, thank you! To the ones who are going to journey with me through 21 I say, lets make this the best year yet! 🙂